Illusorya Atelier - A New Beginning
August 8, 2023. Today is exactly one year. One year since that crazy impetuosity and taking the situation head on in an attempt to free myself from a block that was widening the wear and tear of that "black hole" again.
A small bedroom. How could such a small place give so much discouragement and negative suggestion to the point of creating such a big artblock, in those last two years?
Living in a toxic environment -which I still can't get rid of but I face it with a different attitude- where the continuous interruption in work, the no longer being able to use some media such as oils, ceramic and paints, because they "are annoying smelly" around. Small drops that made a vase already broken and reassembled several times overflow.
Becoming my passion into a full job has been one of the most important things in my life but the feeling of not being able to move forward, of having my hands cut off by the situation created in that room and, finally, of not being able to create anymore. Losing inspiration, love, the emotion of the only lifeblood that flows in my veins.
And then, that hot August day arrived.
For months, after searching around the zone to get my much-loved workplace, I managed to manage the anxiety by opening myself up to an open discussion and, finally, finding a way to renovate an independent space to use as studio.
That hot summer of 2023 was the best I spent: renovating a warehouse recovering materials as much as possible, and managing logistics because I still had to get on with my work. Total chaos, but of happiness
When you have a whirlwind of emotions tied to your passion, when the only perception of usefulness and search for "that reason" in your person is felt by doing what you love... When you are aware that it will lead to struggling in the daily life of this capitalist and consumerist world, but no matter what happens you try anyway. Always.
A comforted heart is already enough for a reason to live.
November 18, 2023 - Tea Party! Inauguration
Welcome to my haunted mansion!
Here, you can visit and explore all my works and creations, simply by writing to me from this page . The atelier is open by appointment.
2 comments
Stefania…..your commitment to working through your depression and completely changing the way you think and hard work has surfaced beautifully! You’re an amazingly strong person and success abounds you from every direction of the world. No matter what, “YOU WILL SUCCEED” because of your inner strength, commitment, talent and love of your Craft. I love you my dear friend.
Congratulazioni complimenti per il grande lavoro spero un giorno di venirti a trovare!!!